On Saturday morning, my face was pale and my energy was low as I was going to church for a prayer workshop. I asked God to give me strength and courage to finish the whole process. When I arrived there, a few Christians were concerned about me, but I told them I was okay. During worship time, I confessed, “Lord, I am nothing, I am sorry that I am weak. Forgive me. I am sorry…” Pastor Lo started preaching about how to listen to God through praying in several processes: worship-love songs, Word-foundation and grounding, and prayer-dialogue (Heb 2:1-2)). He started with “dialogue” to recommend that we use a journal so we can jot down what we want to pray to the Lord. He gave us 10 minutes to write down what we want to pray to the Lord, but before that, he played a video describing a runner who failed to win the prize due to a leg injury and his friend helped him to finish the race..
After 10 minutes, Pastor Lo asked us to share, but only a few had the courage to share with everyone. God, through Pastor Lo, pointed out our problems and flaws, which we had to face from our sharing. It seemed that he has the gift of prophecy. Therefore, no one dared to keep sharing. He started to ask any for any member in Canaan to share and no one wanted to, except deaconess Ruth. Finally, I volunteered to share mine.
“Dear Lord in Heaven, You are the Way, Truth, and Life. Thank you very much! You are my Father, the One Spirit. I trust in You. Like you said, “Whoever has my commends and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” (John 14:21) Thank you Jesus. I love you. Thank you for the cross! In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”
Pastor Lo gave feedback in front of everyone from my sharing, “Simple and deep. This is the type of daughter of God. The relationship is daughter and Father. Summer often uses her smiling to meet/bless people.” He kept asking why I wrote this. I said, “God knows where my lacking is and I am to be loved by Him.” Pastor Lo quickly replied to me, “The interpretation is “Family Love.” I was astonished. “God knows my heart through his response. I sometimes have negative thoughts about why I don’t feel love from church; especially when I feel physically tired. The negative thoughts will appear in my mind.” He asked me, “Can I pray for you?” I replied, “Sure.” He also asked everyone to pray for me.
I felt a strong “electric current” penetrate my heart when Pastor Lo with his whole hand touched my head tightly while praying. My heart was touched more than I could imagine. Actually, my body was not ready to receive such power, so my body had a sort of shaking and nervousness. However, I replied to the prayer, “Thank you Jesus!” as he was still praying. Pastor John Lo has been given many gifts to bless people. The prayer was so warm and touchable; it was the Lord’s blessing. He told us that he could know how God told him to bless people who God wants to bless. I could tell because he did not pray for other people with his hands (touch anyone’s head), but only asked other people to pray for others. I knew God, through him, blessed me.
Deeply, I was not only blessed, but also healed. The incomplete part of me in “Family Area” has been healed. God knew I lacked “Family Love/to be loved “ when I was young, because my parents were divorced. God, with this opportunity, healed and gave me riches beyond compare. I was blessed. The grace was too big to say any words, but thank you, Lord. The feeling was likely dust used to dry out, but now lightened by His blessing and healing. The evidence was “God is a healing God; especially in His “right” timing.” He also let me understand, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well ”(Matthew 6: 33) That was true. What happened to me was a living testimony. Thank you, Lord.
When I went home, I started to pray for other people. The strong “current” reflected inward when I asked Jesus. It seemed I was “recharged,” given more blessings. I also understood the blessing will be shared and used to bless those people who come into my life and for the body of Christ truly. I am reminded; it is all about Jesus not me. Thank you, Lord.
With the sharing, may you receive the blessing too. God is the living God, definitely. If you are in a tough time or have hurt or wounds, please come to Him and carry His yoke and learn from Him. He will give you all! He never fails His words. Needless to say, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18) I am a living example of testimony and may His blessing touch you. Lord, thank you very much!
God bless you!
Summer@_@
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